Often times I get upset when things aren’t turning out how I think they should or if people mistreat me…but I have to remember that everything happens for a reason. Not only that but everything is working out for my good. Today the Lord saw fit to remind me of both and I couldn’t be more grateful. It’s actually difficult for my mind to comprehend everything that happened today and how the favor of God worked and is working over my life. There is now a peace and joy that I have that I can’t describe. It’s just amazing. I’m walking in favor and victory and the promise is still good!
I have more on my heart and spirit than I would like to right now. It just seems like the point was missed and the test was failed. The test was blown is more like it. As obvious as the answer was, it was still failed. But essentially I had to fail somewhere. It’s hard to explain to other people because most likely they’ll think I’m full of myself/making it up or crazy. I wish someone else could have the sight that I do so it would make sense to them too.At least then, I would have someone to talk to about it and I wouldn’t feel so out of place. Sometimes the basic principles of what we were told to do are completely missed.
It still amazes how the music can completely change my state of heart and mind. This song in particular reminds me of what I need to be reaching for. Seeking His face and not His hand. For Your glory…I wanna be where You are.
So it’s been a while since I have written a post mainly because I didn’t have much to write about. I didn’t go anywhere worth writing about and have basically just been going to class. I got put into a lower class which bummed me out for a little while but it was for the best. I actually enjoy my new class much more than my old one. Although I do miss seeing the folks in that class.
Fortunately my loan posted so now I have money which makes me feel a ton better. So today I went and bought a few things that I had been wanting… a router (so I could use my tablet), a rice cooker, and some computer speakers. I don’t have my car to jam in so I have to in my room. Music makes everything better for me, it’s just that powerful and truly the greatest of all the arts. I also got a VPN service so now I can see shows from back home and use Pandora. There is a lot of stuff we don’t realize is only available in the States. I’ve been buying music like crazy cuz I don’t have too many options here. I think I’m going through Twilight and Harry Potter withdrawal. Lol.
It’s been real interesting seeing who turned out to be my real friends. I have been here for a month and I still haven’t heard from some of my “friends”. For the ones I just now heard from I hope they realize it’s too late. I don’t feel bad about that, I just think the Lord is transitioning me. He has made it clear who should come with me to that next level. Well it’s getting late. Been a long day. :-)